Pastor David Williams is sharing his heartbreaking post-abortive story on Priest for Life’s Radio Maria. 
David was 19 and a sophomore in college when his first girlfriend got pregnant and they decided to abort their child. But the young woman was traumatized, and the relationship ended soon after the abortion. He began to drink heavily and became promiscuous, but somehow kept up with his studies and graduated with honors.
After he graduated from college and was working his way up the career ladder, David got involved with a woman at work, and she soon discovered she was pregnant. He knew he didn’t want to go through another abortion, so he became, in his words, “pro-life by default.” He married the mother of his child, even though he knew he didn’t love her. “Nothing changed about me except I had a ring on my finger.”
He was still drinking, still sleeping with other women, and he began to develop the same kind of anger that had plagued his father and ended his parent’s marriage. When his son was born, he found he couldn’t even get excited. When he and his wife separated, he felt like he had the best of both worlds. He could see his son when he wanted to, and continue his wild life “without feeling bad about it.”
But the day he watched his wife and son driving away in a U-Haul, and then attended a niece’s birthday party, he felt like “someone took a pin to the hot air balloon of my life. The weight of my sin had become too great.”
Later, when he was alone at home, “it was like God found me in my apartment.” He asked for help with his drinking, his cursing, his promiscuity. From that day, when he was 26, until he married four years later, he was chaste and sober.
But even with his new wife and their children, he still had eruptions of anger and depression. He found it hard to bond with his children, and couldn’t grieve for his mother when she died.
It wasn’t until he was asked to speak at a pregnancy center banquet and was working on his talk that he realized he had never sought forgiveness for his abortion decision, nor forgiven his mother for supporting that choice.
“The Lord allowed me to see the weight of that sin as I had never seen it before,” he said, “and as I spoke that night, I realized God was calling me to be a champion of the unborn.”
His frank talks about abortion, grief and the healing possible through Jesus are now reaching men all over the country.
The live aired Tuesday. It will be repeated 2 a.m. Thursday and midnight Sunday. All the shows are archived at www.priestsforlife.org/radiomaria.
David’s website can be found here.